Over the holidays I had a couple of things happen with family members where I felt rejected, my heart broke and I wept, so I went to be with the Lord to ask Him about it. I have learned that pain will pile on and hurt us deeper when there are unhealed roots. He started reminding me of all the people that have rejected me all through my life. Family, friends, co-workers, boyfriends, employers, teachers, church members…and even myself. There was so much pain there.
So the Lord had me write a list of all those that had rejected me to go through and forgive each one. It was intense and hurt to remember them all, but when I was done, there was a huge release. I also asked for forgiveness for any way I had rejected others. I learned along the way that rejection has stages, first we are rejected, then we reject others, we also begin to fear rejection, then we reject ourselves, and the final stage is creating rejection around ourselves. Being a seer, when I get around people, a lot of times I can feel their issues. I feel rejection as a deep pain in a person’s heart and have seen the Lord remove a huge knife with the word rejection on it, as He set them free. When the rejection gets to the final stage I can tell, because I will have a strong desire to reject them, push them away, avoid them…and I will have to work hard to love and accept them…that is where the warfare of Love comes in.
Tonight as I was thinking about it all, I remembered a heavenly experience God had given me. In the vision, I was young, and out in a field with a group of girls, we were holding hands in a circle and dancing around…freely laughing, playing, and full of joy! Then, for a moment I “looked” into their eyes to see if they “liked” me, and the young girl that was showing me around saw my heart and said to me, “It is ok, you are alright, there is no REJECTION here.” This was profound to me.
All my life it seems I have been looking into other’s eyes to “see” if I was ok, but it was never their place to determine that for me. God was reminding me, I am a citizen of Heaven, and where I come from, there is no rejection. We are called to be like Him and He accepts us all, so rejecting others is actually a sin. It is a tool of the enemy to cause us to be wounded, to divide us, to shut us down and shut us up.
When a person begins to reject others, that is when you will see the judging, critical spirit in them…you can almost feel them sizing you up. They will also be very striving, performing, still trying to earn a position that God created them for. Religious spirits are like this too. Jealousy and envy are in their hearts. They will create cliques, factions, and walk as though they are better than others, creating an atmosphere of spiritual elitism and idolatry. I believe this division is one of the greatest hindrances to the Lord moving and all of it has to die for Love and Acceptance to reign so we can be in unity as His body.
When I first started going to my home church, I would see people dancing together, loving one another. I was afraid to step into the river. I was not used to that type of freedom and acceptance, but now, I do not hesitate. So, when I go to a different church to paint or minister, during worship, a lot of times I will invite others to dance in a circle with me…as the spirit flows on and through us…just like at my home church and just like I did in Heaven. It is a time where HIS glory comes and we laugh and giggle just like we did in my heavenly vision. Anyone can join us, and I constantly invite others to come into the circle. The Lord comes on us so strongly as I do this, sometimes I will be unable to continue to stand, so I will fall out in the spirit and His GLORY will rest on me heavily as I lay there on the floor, laughing completely drunk in His Love. A woman that I had danced with in a series of meetings recently came to me the last night I was there and said to me, “you bring so much love when you are here, and you make everyone feel so accepted.”
YESSSS, thank you Lord for revealing this and allowing this woman to encourage me!!!! That is my heart for the church, (and even those outside of the church)…that is what I feel called to release…because I know, dancing like a child with others is warfare and an intercession of LOVE created to defeat rejection, to release liberty from the Kingdom of Heaven and bring unity to the body!!!!