“You don’t know your worth.”

This sculpture, Walking Man, or L’Homme qui marche, is the most expensive piece of art to ever sell at auction, want to know it’s price?  $104.3 million.  Tell me, do you think it is it worth that?

I am an artist, so I love original art, and I certainly don’t.  But, someone did.

The other day I was with the Lord, and I was asking Him why I always do this one very foolish thing that causes me to get hurt over and over again.  This is something I have been doing all my life it seems.  God just said to me, “you don’t know your worth.”

I have been thinking about that, since He said it to me.  What does that mean?   What is my worth?  And how can I know it?

As a child, I grew up not loving myself.  The family I came from did not know how words could wound a young child, especially someone sensitive like me, so I began to hate myself at a very young age.  The curses spoken over me became part of me.  Deep inside I did not believe I was worth much.  I remember saying many times. “I hate myself.”

Recently, the Lord set me free from the lie, and now, I am extremely sensitive to anyone that makes me feel bad about myself.  It is amazing how different I feel now.  But, I guess, even though I now love myself, coming to know your worth, is something I have to realize, comprehend and learn to walk in.

What makes something of value, or worthy?

Cost.   They cost a lot.  The sculpture above was bought with a price, a very high price.  Once something gets a price in an auction, its worth is established.  I was too, when Jesus died for me.  God must have thought I was very valuable to send His only begotten Son to die for me.  You know the old saying, “you get what you pay for.”

Rare.  Valuable things are rare.  Hard to find Antiques, or historical artifacts are so precious because time has taken so much from us.  They give us a glimpse into the past.  They have been preserved.  God says He looks to and fro for someone to bless; someone with a heart after His, He says they are rare.

Purpose.  If something does something that only it can do, then it is worth a lot to the person that needs it to accomplish what it was made for.  There are tools that have been created and designed by the medical field that keep people alive, to the patient receiving it, it is priceless.  God said He made us with a purpose in mind.  Maybe we are the only ones that can fulfill that purpose.

Unique.    I was thinking, I am too, there is NOT another person like me on this earth. No one has the same fingerprint, or face.  I am a true original.  The Mona Lisa is priceless, but I can get a cheap copy for hardly anything.

Personal.  Some of the trinkets I value most are those that are very personal to me.  Gifts given to me by those I love, or mementos from special occasions.  Those things cannot be recreated, or replaced.  The memories they carry with them are too precious.  God says we are like that to Him, that He knew us before He created us.  That He has our name written on the palm of his hand.  He knows how many hairs we have on our heads, and his good thoughts toward us are more than the stars.  Wow.  That is pretty personal.

Trustworthy.  There are many things and people in my life that have come and gone.  But that one thing that remains and is always there for me becomes very valuable to me.  That one trusted friend is like pure gold.  Tried and true.

Precious.  Gold, diamonds, and rare gems are precious.  They have to be sought out, mined for, and panned for.  They can’t be found just anywhere.  People lose their lives for these things because the potential of reward is so great.

Love.  My family, dear friends and pets are some of the things that are the very most valuable.  We love them, and they have loved us.  God calls me His daughter, and He has loved me more than anyone ever has.

Now that I have meditated on it, I can see I have great worth.  Not because I am all that…but because I am His.

He chose me, He knows me intimately, He bought me for a great price,  He died for me, He calls me family, He sought me out, He loves me, He created me unique with a purpose and there is only one of me!!!!!

That is so amazing isn’t it?!!!!    I have worth!!!!!  And if you are His, you do too!

It is Plenty

One time I was painting a prophetic portrait for a sister, and I saw she was holding a basket. She was holding it close, like she wanted to hide it. Finally I saw inside of it, it was a few fish and a couple of loaves. God spoke to me and said, “She does not think what she has to offer is enough, but reassure her that it is…it is plenty!” It ministered to her, and she agreed, it was something she had battled with.

Tonight my heart is heavy, I am sad for those that feel what they have to offer is not enough. Or those who think “who they are” is not okay. Maybe someone religious tried to make them feel inadequate like they are…because they are different from them. I know for me, it is hard sometimes to share how God uses me, and especially very personal things about how God speaks to me with people that do not believe me.

If I feel judged, or criticized, it just makes me want to hold back, to hold my basket close. Not share my loaves and fishes. Even though Jesus said it is plenty, and people come to me often and tell me how I minister to them.

So be careful and look for friends that make you feel good about yourself, not ones that make fun of you. People that build you up and encourage you…not tear you down…or make you feel less than.

…I love this from the msg bible.

You all have a single Teacher, and you are all classmates. Don’t set people up as experts over your life, letting them tell you what to do. Save that authority for God; let him tell you what to do. No one else should carry the title of ‘Father’; you have only one Father, and he’s in heaven. And don’t let people maneuver you into taking charge of them. There is only one Life-Leader for you and them—Christ.

“Do you want to stand out? Then step down. Be a servant. If you puff yourself up, you’ll get the wind knocked out of you. But if you’re content to simply be yourself, your life will count for plenty…